2019, Single-channel video (17”20, silence, color, loop), The Ball Measure Instruction, a red ball
This work was possible to actualize in supports of the Korean Art Council.
In Intolerance of Uncertainty, a particular emotion that is not visible nor seizable –anxiety– becomes a matter. Uncertain things may scare you. The anticipation of blurred future events may excite or frustrate you. This emotional state becomes more apparent when people have fewer resources and memories about the surrounding environment such as the situations of refugees, newcomers, a life of an artist as a freelancer, and etc. The agitating mind may be disturbed by financial, physical, and/or mental instability. It affects every day tremendously as if you could even die alone tomorrow. Carleton asserts in a journal entitled The Intolerance of Uncertainty Construct that the anxiety from unactualized threats against one’s death is an underlying symptom in anxiety disorder patients because it is an area that a person has never experienced and learned–the most unknown realm of human life.
Throughout the production of Intolerance of Uncertainty, I would like to explore the irony that each anxiety in an individual is so different and subtle that it cannot be measured by a few sentences of written measurements that are generally used. Thus, the work does not attempt to invite participants into a rational measurement. Rather, an audience will experience a slow time flowing in themselves where they can tacitly interact with the Ball’s circular shape that has the upper and lower surface, which are substitutable for one another. Rubbing and squeezing the circle of the Ball may represent the way that a body and a mind communicate with one another in a person, the Earth, and the circulating shape of life. Intolerance of Uncertainty, therefore, encourages the audience to encounter more or hidden anxiety that they have not noticed, yet also to realize that anxiety flows like a ball, always coming and going, and it solely exists in individuals’ hands like the Ball; thus, it is not a real material that you should be afraid of. It lives and grows in your fragile imagination that might be fearful of “rolling” forward.
Photos are taken at SomoS Art House in Berlin at a group exhibition entitled Orphaned Memories.